Today stinks....

I am contracting again not sure if it is just because my stomache is upset or because of the babies... My work called and they can no longer hold my position.... I have been gone for too long.... Not that I dont blame them it just sucks.... Now I might have to work on a real floor in the hospital instead of specialty....... Just so bummed and frustrated..... I dont feel good I am worried not only for the babies but for our finances... Just need to cry and pray..... where is the strength and hope I felt yesterday........