A few bumps in the road!!

I started having major contractions and pressure about a week ago...... We went in Monday and found out I had begun to dilate and our little ones were in danger..... After lots of monitoring and testing our babies look great however my body is not responding as well to the pregnancy.... We need to make it a little bit more then a week from now on minimal medication and maximum rest... after that we can then use more powerfull drugs and pray they stay in for a long time... Please Pray that my body will respond and my little ones stay safe...

4 months

One more month down and back on bed rest!!!! Yuck I had about 3 days where I could get out of bed... So my and my twin belly are just hanging out..... I seriously don't know how big I will be in the end a little bit scared about that but so thankful for everyday they stay in safe and happy and growing...I wish I could say I love being pregnant really not a fan but love the fact that I have 2 little ones on the way and I can not wait to see these little babies I already love so much!!!

Good Morning Mommy.... Happy Mothers Day!!!

I woke up this morning to an unfamiliar greeting ....... My little ones were moving!!!!! I have thought that I felt little flutters but this was unmistakable movement... On both sides of the belly.... It was my present from my two little ones what an amazing feeling I love it.... I was thinking how different next year will be for Mothers Day then this one... I began to think of my life and how it is going to change in an amazing way.....I saw this poem and I thought to my self what kind of Mom will I be to these little ones.......

I have longed and waited.
I have cried and prayed.
I have endured and planned over and over again.
Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.
I will notice everything about my child.
I will take time to watch my child sleep,explore,and discover.
I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life.
I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold, and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream.
My dream will be crying for me.
I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child.
Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love.
I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend, and sister because I have known pain.I know disillusionment, as I have been betrayed by my own body.
I have been tried by fire and hell that many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.
I have prevailed.
I have succeeded.
I have won.
So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort.
I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs
I listen.And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely.
I have learned the immense power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth when life is beyond hard.
I have learned a compassion that only comes by walking in those shoes. I have learned to appreciate life.
Yes, I will be a wonderful mother

I can not wait to see these little ones..... Happy Mothers Day!!!!!

Its a................................................

Boy............ Baby A is a boy we are so excited to finally put a name to this little one not sure what yet but working on it.. He looks great........
Girl............Baby B is a girl can not believe it....... Never thought it would happen..... We do have a namen for this little one.. Isabella Eileen named partially after my Mom....
When she said it was a girl I began to get teary I prayed for a little girl years ago... My dream and prayer was answered in the form of my beautifull stepdaughter Tessa... When she was taken away I questioned my faith my God and his plan my love for her is not gone and I think of her all of the time and pray for her but this little one is the proof that God keeps his promises and I am getting my little girl.. God also gave me a stepson named Cody who was also the answer to my prayers for a brother for Andrew... Same story and miss him more then I can say... However God had other plans in the form of these little ones... The birth of these little ones will not take away the pain and the loss but a reminder that he keeps his promises.......I am overwhelmed with love and excitement.......

Seriously!!! Bedrest Record...

I am officially on bedrest now with some slight changes in my cervical length.... This means at least 5 more weeks of total bedrest... This means that I have spent the last 14 weeks laying here... I know that it is worth it in the end ... I literally cant wait till September....