One step forward three steps back

Today's news is not good ..... Looks like all of the follicles on the left side are shrinking....The ones on the right however are increasing.... So frustrating...... So not sure if this will even be a valid cycle or not...Trying to not be sad or discouraged but I am not known for being patient..... Not a big shocker there... So hard to have no controll.... Guess that is when you have to learn to give over the control and trust it is all not in my own timing or plan...